Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
不知不觉今天是我们分开的一星期了时间过得还真快总觉得事情好像昨天才刚发生似的事情突然来得让我感到好不真实思念了七天一百六十八个小时一万八十分钟六十万四千八百秒知道我们不会再重来 但还是无法不再去想你在这期间我很努力地想要去忘记但也明白了不能用忘记来欺骗自己继续想念还是遗忘都好事实还是事实我不再为难自己 逃避现实因为越刻意地不想反而会让自己越想起所以我还是会继续想你想念那忘不了的回忆因为原来它早已在很久以前成为了我前进的动力及精神支柱只想问候你 没有了我的你最近还好吗希望现在的你会过得比从前快乐
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Monday, September 28, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Time past very fast..today was get into the forth day without u..Finally I pass my JPJ dy..i done it..felt happy but oso sad becoz u r not de first one who know de news..i couldn’t share my happiness with u anymore..i couldn’t fetch u once I pass as I promised before..=(..woke up early again today..going for de jpj test..there was not much ppl having the drving test today..so I done all de thing in a short time and I’ve pass everything without any mistaken..congratz to myself..=)..felt tired becoz of not enogh sleep.. once I reach home jiu slept dy…when I woke up I’ve a call from winson ooi..abit shocked becoz long time he never phoned me dy..he asked me stil remember him or not..of course I do..he thought I forget him dy..= =..hmm chat jor a while on phone and knew that he was now in a.s..came back from kl coz of school holiday after his exam...aftertat I was going to bath and eat dinner dy..then went for tuition when the time reach..after tuition going to fetch my sista finish tuition oso from IP..then I asked my mum brought us to ‘ji diao loh’ eat lok lok..when eating loklok..there was an aunty and uncle..they were looking at my sista n I very long and kept discussing at there that whether we are twins or not..lolx..that uncle stil comfirm that we are twins..= =..my mind was running n saying in heart: ‘uncle u’re wrong dy..we are juz sista not twins...’@@..on the way home..winson phoned me again..he asked where are me now..he was now at near my house there wana find me..hmm wait a minute I almost reached..after I was reached home..we were talking in his car outside my house..talked n said many things..talk about his college’s life in kl..quite fun n enjoyed..but stil ‘yat ji gong’..haha..he seems good n din changed much.juz dye jor hair and his skin become more white I think..lolx..he was going back on the next week..hmm chat jor about one hour like that he was back n I oso back into my house n room then start to study dy..tomorrow exam de last subject-Chinese..although very tired but dono why don wan sleep..maybe lately used to sleep late dy..whatever..aftert studied lying on bed..saw back my msg that all from you..missing u again..miss the warm hug from u..miss ur everything..felt upset and tears kept falling down again tonite..T.T..tuh until four like tat then slept le..zzz27Sept09
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Monday, September 28, 2009
Slept at seven and woke up at twelve..huu quite tired eh..going practise car today..today eh driving stil not bad..everything goes well din do wrong anything and I could recognize the road dy..much confident jor..hope I will pass my driving test tomorrow..waiting to get my license P dy..after practise reach home about two o clock like that then fetch my sista to my mum’s shop took rice..nothing to do so study de whole afternoon..abit boring n sleepy= =..went tuition when time reach..In tuition I thought I will felt much suffer becoz we were in the same place tuition together but its not hard as I think oni..although I juz only saw dao ur backside..when almost finished tuition..yee laopo called me..she said lvshan was going to bringing us go out together..once I reach home go out again..cham..out continuosly these few days..my mum almost bo lat with me..= =..after lvshan came fetched me then we were going to yee’s house to bring her..in de car we were planning where to go..lolx a.s too sien dy..no place could go one..after discussing we decided to go double plate..wow there was so so many ppl when we were reach there even no place to sit..at tis time lvshan shouted..she juz realized that she was wearing terbalik short..lolx..me n yee laughed at her..so funny la..so dai tao ha one but nvm la if din said oso cant see out..hmm suan liao lo we went other place..we went to the new open de nasmir near billion there who knows oso many ppls..lolx today is wat day oo why everywhere oso many ppls one..then we go for the anggerik café near tat area oso..finally v sat down liao..at this moment I juz realized that today I haven’t ate anything yet..= =..forgot jor..nvm lu dang diet not bad oso..fan zheng now no ppl care dy..eat less abit more good..hmm yee think to eat her favourite’heh goh bak’..so she made order..the salad one..but they said not very delicious oni..aftertat v were planning where to go after ate..sien la wan go somewhere oso so hard..lvhsan phoned carol asked her where was her..she was at home..heard that she was falling sick..aftertat we were going to her house to find her..she came out with wearing ‘mai yun tong’..zzz..then we went to desa seraya together..fed mosquitoes at there..= =..then talking la wat..haihx..my mood getting down n down when at there..talked about last time between us de thing with yee..there was so many memories between us at desa seraya..memorable..tears kept running in my eyes..Reached home almost one o clock..online blogging n chatting..today slept in de morning again..zzz26Sept09
Will you ever notice me...
Monday, September 28, 2009
Today woke up late in de afternoon ..once I woke up I saw ur msg..u msg me..u told me that u had something to give me but I told u don need ady..i dun wan to take it n oso dun wan to look at it..u juz throw it ba..tats juz meaningless for me anymore..afterthat v din contact ady..haihsx..woke up and fainted again..after get up I went to Gesesis for hair cut but not Teams..hmm saja wana change hairstylist sometimes..lolx dono tiok wat ci kek my hair was cut until damn short this time...first time wana cut until so short..maybe I m getting tired being caught by discipline teacher dy ba..short hair oso nice what..=)..nite I went to ‘ji diao loh’ having dinner with my parents n sista..my sista and I were going to eat ‘beng bak’ at ipohkia while my parents did not followed us..they went other place to eat which oso in ‘ji diao loh’..that ‘beng bak’ was so nice nice nice n delicious lah…suddenly received a msg ‘eat bo jio’ but no display name..i looked around..oh yuan lai is Birdy..everytimes go out dinner oso so ngam will met her one..she oso ate at ipohkia then she came kacau us a while..after having dinner reach home..waiting poh came fetch me again lu..we were going out for drive..actually is wait him teach me drive n let me practise la coz this Sunday I m going to have JPJ test dy..so nervous lah~~
Before that we were going to oldtown to met his unlce n those boss..lolx..got abit regret followed him went there..so boring there with his three frens..not very sek with them n nothing to chat..paise nia= =..his fren and I were waiting him to ‘keng buiseness’ with those uncle..at this moment..beside us was a promoter..she was promoting something about study thing to us..lolx..i oso dono wat was she talking about..i saw poh’s fren oso tekan diao listened at there..lame..i just kept sms ing there n sms my sista for help n came save me up..after some times later my sista was reach..luckily stil got she I wont so boring...wait poh got two hours like tat its almost tweve thirty now..= =..my mum kept calling me non stop dy..cham..then we going to my taman there eh basketball court there practise car..poh let me drive his car ler..he don’t scare I will took his car go long piak..haha..i bian drive he bian teach me..hmm..his teaching skill was not bad..when he became my driving teacher jor huh..@@..but oso wana thx him lah..
After reach home online again..lately addicted to the pc always online..hmm holiday curi tulang a while..hehe..online met ray in msn..long time din chat with her dy..she seems like very good with her life..got new gf lu ppl..good lo then..aftertat she phoned me then v chit chat jor a while..long time din listened she sang for me dy..stil so nice n thx for her accompany whenever I was unhappy..after hang the phone I phoned lvshan then we oso chat jor a while..long time din talked phoned with her oso dy..hehe..the nite was getting late n late jor its almost three now..met yyou n poh in msn..yyou suan siao me said I went oldtown bo jio= =..chit chat with poh..the nite was such boring..planning to go 24hours Kfc..i thought we were juz kidding who knows he was in serious..takkan..it was 3.30 am..i m thinking whether I realy wan so siao? Kept thinking n joking..i was made deicision..go jiu go scare wat..lolx..yyou was going with us too..after I prepared everything..lock my room’s door,lock the stair’s door,look my house door everthing was going very well..i thought my dog will barking at me..i was shocked that it never do so instead wat’s damn was my opposite house eh dog kept barking when saw me..walao gin jeong enough..i hide behind the car for some times..lolx..tuh until half an hour like tat got..yyou n poh kept calling come..tat time I was keng sou with my dog..= =..i fed it with a piece of tiger biscuit..haha..hmm my mind was telling me that dun care so much dy la..once I opened the gate I straight ran into the car dy..huu so ci kek..then we were going yyou’s house to picked him up..he seems like bit angry coz no one heard his phone n unlucky monkey cant go along with us..we scared got blocking so go sek a big circle juz reach the new kfc..few ppls there..the day is nearly to morning dy so the menu oso change dy..after we had made order jiu start to eat dy..dont have yyou wan eat eh snack plate..wat he ordered at last was smtg like a kid meal..while I ate many thing such as cheese wedges,nuggets and potato whipped..bian eat bian sms with monkey..she was awake dy..paise with her nia luan dao she woke from dream..huu..i was full enough..after ate we sat outside wait yyou smoke..after he finished smoke then jiu went home dy..its nearly to six in de morning.. my maid was woke up dy so i pakat with her asked her not to told my mum anything n dang din saw me..gai nia me..but long time once nvm la..haha..xD..back into room then stil sms with monkey a while..i told her my things..hmm..now was 7 am in de morning..it's time to sleep..zzz25Sept09
Will you ever notice me...
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Cried whole nite lastnite..my eyes going to swell like golden fish @@
Talked phone since four smtg until six smtg in the morning then fainted...getting tired n tired...
Woke up at about 8 o clock then go woke my sista up dy..we are going to swimming...
When she woke up she was stomach pain...aiyo why pain at this time eh how was she going to swim oo...but she said after ate medicine will be nothing dy sure accompany me go swimming one...god..touch nia..thx my lovely sista love u..
After prepared my mum brought us to asrc..hmm not much ppl was there in the morning...
After took off our clothe jiu get into de pool dy...huu the water was warm not as cold as I think...so song...swimming was the most happiness thing for me...love it much felt very free and enjoyable when swimming...it’s juz could let me forget every sadness n painess...swim until ten smtg then going for breakfast..hmm..tat’s bad that i still haven good back with dad..din talk dao de whole journey even when having breakfast...i m juz like transparent n ‘tap toi’ only..he juz asked n talked with my sista only even want eat wat oso juz ask her..well whatver..i was just sitting saw them eat..= =..went home about eleven smtg then slept..
Originally set alarm wana woke up at two smtg one who knows once I woke up jiu five smtg dy..slp pig me= =..even my sista oso cant woke up..woke up so late cant go for hair cut dy..cant tahan my messy hair dy..when I woke up I saw my phone there were many msg n miss call..one of the msg is from u…why u juz could act like nothing happen like that..unacceptable but I juz replied…after bath n ate then going to billion n tesco with mum sista n Winnie..opportunely she came my house to find my sista so we are going together..have fun in tesco..do many bobo thing..we are trying ate those sweets n grapes although there was a notice mention that ‘no trying pls’..haha..
Reach home around nine smtg waiting poh came brought us go out..so boring at home n I surely will simply think eh so went out better...after planning in de car then go to alorstar mall..today was Thursday nite no movie..sien abo watch movie oso not bad…lengang here n there a while then we sat at Georgetown yam cha sembang…communicate with poh on a piece of paper...use write..lolx lame..a while later poh n his fren going for snooker at downstairs in as mall juz left me my sista n Winnie at georgetown...we keep talking..
At tis moment..i msg yee told her that I very miss u..yee told me wat u said to her...yee said u miss me too...haish..dono..wat for like that..sms with yee n talked many things about us...mood abit getting down...we sat until twelve like that georetown are going to close dy..so early..then poh came brought us to snooker there..there was many ppl in the snooker shop..sat inside talking n waiting poh n his fren play snooker..
Reach home around twelve smtg then wait Winnie’s sista came picked her up...afterthat cant sleep then online a while..then offline about three smtg like that..at this moment u msg me juz to chat..u asked me that can u still treat me nice u said that u felt difficult to pretend like u dun wan care about anything cant deny that u really care...but at last I refused with the reason dun wan..i dono wat to said still..i dun wan ur care anymore dun let me suffer of ur nice treat..it’s much pain when I m telling u not to find me anymore...i said enjoyed ur freedom...tis was the last nite for us to contact..there was no more connection after tonite...want sleep but cant sleep...lying on bed very long n kept thinking of u n memory back everything of us..i m getting mad..virus attact seriously..cant stop..tired of crying...sblue phone me..then we chat jor a while then slept..slept in de morning again..zzz..24Sept09
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Thursday, September 24, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
今天我终于下定决心说出口了
我们终于可以拥有永远了 永远的解脱
是我太执着于那已不存在的回忆
那一年互相为彼此着迷的我们 那全心全意的你
是我不愿意放掉三年的感情
这三年里我们经过了许多波折 有甜有苦的
我们互相思念不曾把对方给忘记
兜兜转转那份爱还是牵引着我们在一起
但是感情早于在两年前已变质了
就连你也是不再一样了
在我亲手毁掉的那一刻开始
你的心不再是完全属于我的了
你的冷落你的不在乎你不再那么爱我了
原来是我绑你绑得那么久让你那么累
你早于向往了一个人的自由
在这一秒我才知道你不再属于我
我们的的距离越来越远
感觉越来越陌生和当初不一样了
一个从前很向往自由的我当觉悟
想要真心专一的时候显然已经迟了一步
只能怪自己当初的贪念及不懂得珍惜
真正幸福爱得疯狂的我们只有那一年的秋天
这一年的冬天是寒冷的
你就只丢下了一句对不起就离开了
你不需要道歉
没有谁的对与错
只能说是我的不该
当初不该伤害你
后来不该再继续
今天的夜晚过得特别的漫长
陪我渡过这一晚的仅是一条毛巾和
释放不完的眼泪
我即将封锁这死掉的爱情
我并不想说爱你
只想说 你自由了
晴天不会再出现
童话也只不过是故事里的虚幻
不会有幸福快乐的结局
陪着我渡过每一天的只有那些回不来的回忆
以及那些用心的书签
每个特别日子的照片
一支支爱的宣言的冰淇淋棒
那两只代替你的玩偶
那些保存完美得书信
那些甜言蜜语的信息
而不再是你在我身边了
我得狠狠把你推开才能放下你所有的足迹及身影
既然断就要狠一点不再留恋
分开了就别再说你爱我 那是无情的
分开了就别说要对我好 那是同情的
分开了就别再要思念了 那是多余的
分开了就别再替自己找借口了 那只是安慰
别说分开会让彼此更好过 那只是谋杀彼此的感情
因为我并不会好过
请你不要说你还会一直爱着我
不要让我更讨厌你 不然我会更讨厌我自己
恕我无法和你成为朋友
原谅我的自私 因为我还爱你
也许某天我们当回朋友的那时候就是我不再爱你了
我只想封闭一切美好的回忆
把它埋葬在心里最底层
回忆你跟忘记你 我选择遗忘
就像自由和我 你宁愿选择自由而不是我
这已经是很显然的答案了 你对我的爱已经逐减了
就算我再怎么努力多么的爱你 也是没意义的感情
只能说爱上你 我输得彻底
24Sept09
Will you ever notice me...